Daze 1 & 2

So here lies my new blog, which will hopefully last longer than a couple of half hearted attempts at blogging. I recently quit a full time job in childcare to work for myself. I was motivated by various reasons, but one reason in particular was just to have more flexibility. I am working on finding out the "label" that goes along with my personality type, but I do know I like to be in charge ;-).

In my previous childcare jobs, I mostly worked with preschoolers - I absolutely love them! They are so funny, affectionate, precocious, etc. I miss them dearly. But it was time for the chaos in my life to slow down. I needed more peace, in my mind and my heart. You know it's time to leave ajob when it is affecting your life in a negative way. I have not dealt well with stress in the past - at least not in large quantities. I am certain that my threshold has increased, but I'd rather not push myself to my limit on a regular basis. I guarantee my husband would also rather I didn't.

So, I decided to start my own in home childcare service. I want to start small, so I have two infants enrolled now, with a third starting in Febraury. Infants are very different. They don't talk back, they sleep a lot more and they are generally pretty helpless. It is a relief to have a break from the tantrums and the fits, though I'm sure I can handle them should they rear their ugly heads in my future. When these babies cry, it is for a reason. A reason that makes sense. There is something comforting in that.

My husband and I plan to have kids in the future. But for now, I will use my super sweet nurturing skills to care for other babies. I enjoy providing a safe haven and an enriching environment to growing, tiny people.

The last two days, I have only spent about four-five hours with each infant...and one at a time. Tomorrow begins what the rest of this month will be like: both babies at the same time. Ok, I retract that last statement partially. One infant will only be here half days this week and not at all on friday. But it's a good way to ease into the change.

Here we go!